Tuesday, October 25, 2005
hiaz....looking at the way i m feeling now...i just dun understand y my mum cant identify with me...u noe she tells me of how some kids r so problematic...but i dun believe its the kids all the time...its so annoying too....maybe i m just paranoid....but it realli seems like she is hinting stuff...i mean like i m not realli in the mood to study...at least not for the last 3 hours of this relatively crappy tuesday...cant she just cut me some slack on the comp for once....
got quite alot of stuff on my mind today...dun realli noe where to start...
had chem prac today...was realli scared....sometimes, we feel like nothing realli goes our way....lifes like many of us call it 'a bitch'....oh wells...come back to tht later....
i m alittle random today...but u read the whole blog n u ll get the picture....went to KFC for lunch with thow and reuben den later met kristi and sam...den left....i didnt just leave....i left my calculator there too...den went tuition....after tht....i tell u...something totally freaked me out la...mervyn...he just walked up to me and said i noe ur secret....den after tuition....he happened to see me again....he asked me 'do u like _____?'....i was like OMS...i mean like i m not gonna tell u ppl hu it is or how true it is....but how the heck do they get this sort of thing? i dun even talk to him tht much....
i thot i lost the ability to be lame....haha....den i realised tht it was actaully just in dormant....today....i tot of a crap load of lame things to say....just tht non of it sorta left my mouth....sort of like a confirmation test....somewhat like in chem....den i was just thinking la...
ammonia and sodium hydroxide....sort of like affection....calcium....it is insoluble in excess sodium hydroxide....it doesnt even pass tht stage to form a clear colourless solution...in ammonia....it has no reaction at all....its so low in affection...its probably the most clear cut example of zero of sparingly souble affection of the white ppt producing cations...
den we go on to lead and aluminium...they realli display the same properties...they are soluble in excess sodium hydroxide...yup at least they pass tht stage...but den again...they do not go beyond ammonia....how to realli noe if they r tht great when it comes to affection?? den we use the potassium iodine test....tht many dun realli noe about...its gonna be either this or tht....but isnt it just so hard to differenciate the two....it could be the lead of affection or the aluminium of less....
finally....its zinc...most clear cut....soluble in excess of everything...its so obvious....probably the least stressful and a delight for all of us to have....but easy as it may be to identify....its hard to get...
looking at today...i left calcium behind....ppl said it was zinc and lead....but somehow....i m stuck with aluminium and lead....hiaz....maybe...ppl like me are anions....form compounds with cations....maybe we should just stay away...tht way...we remain pure....we dun change our properties...n we probably wont go nuts as well....
well but while problems leave us moaning and groaning...God realli seems to lift us up...tht like Matt 11:28-30 says....i just feel so encouraged by wad John did over the last few days....n i realli experienced the power of prayer.... John, Cheryl and i arranged to pray for each other over our shifts la...so today....i realli prayed and prayed....when u pray...u dun just edifiy others....u edify urself...it just felt so renewing and so refreshing....n i realli thank u guys for the prayers man....today was a perfect testimony during my prac....i was staring at the design question....not a clue of wad to do....i seriously went blank...thought of putting a clear wrong ans or just leaving it blank altogether....den it struck me tht God would never leave me nor forsake me....so i just sat there and prayed...i just felt the presence flow in like a great warm and a breeze the seem sweep past me....i felt comforted and out of panic...n the acid metal reaction just came to my head....n it realli saved me some marks...without it...i would have kissed an A goodbye...but with it....i stand a chance if not for an A1 or even more....
i got abit negative today too after hearing all the nonsense ppl were talking bout after the paper after school...n i got worried after tuition....but den again...i tot of the unexpectency....and i just stood there at the corner of void deck and prayed in tongues....n God showed me unexpectancy in a brand new way....i was thinking...Gods not gonna change my wrong ans to right....but they might not be wrong....there r other papers....tht he will make a way for me....i read this little chapter in 2 Timothy 4:17-18 and it realli sort of motivated me....about Gods promises and tht he would lead us and give me the strength to fulfil wad we are called to do....it just feels much better now...hee...i guess i can realli smile again instead of having to put it on...heee....
I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.
-2 Timothy 4:7-
not the whole race but at least this leg of the race...
thank John! thank God! thank the Word! Hallelujah!
|cowpoo| 8:44 PM|
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